Why I Feel Bad for Michael Jackson

Okay call me crazy. Call me a child molester lover (no, please don't) but there is just something about Michael Jackson's fall from grace that upsets me. I feel bad for him.

Michael Jackson is f'd up!

Some of you probably think he deserves all the problems he has (financial issues, losing Neverland, being exiled, pretty much, to Bahrain). Perhaps you think he deserves worse. Perhaps you think he should be behind bars. Maybe I believe that too but let's try to put all that aside for a bit. Everyone pretty much believes he "molested" the kid (or several) but let's put that aside.

Michael Jackson has been scrutinized in the public eye since what...the age of five or six? Again, I'm not making excuses for him let's just look at it from his angle.

Think back to when you were that age and everything that you've gone through since then. Now throw on top of that a media frenzy wherever you go. No privacy. No going to the grocery store to pick up a gallon of milk, no taking someone out to dinner, no going to public school and socializing with other children when you were young.

Sure Michael Jackson has (or at least had) a ton of money and while a lot of money makes some things easier it doesn't buy fun, happiness, joy, a sense of fulfillment or well being. How much fun can it be going to Safeway after it's closed. You hire a fleet of bodyguards and what not just so that you can walk up and down the aisles for a half-hour to buy a loaf of bread, a gallon of milk and, of course, Teen Beat magazine (ok, I had to throw that in). Seriously, imagine that type of isolation.

Also, throw in a violent and demanding father. That alone will screw up anyone for a lifetime.

Okay if that's not bad enough...now throw on top of all of the above a tendency toward members of the same sex. It's my belief that Michael Jackson is gay. While this isn't anything revolutionary, it just adds another layer of complexity to the situation. Thousands of us repress our homosexuality for fear of being an outcast. Think of Michael Jackson, how much more of an outcast could he be? Made worse by being gay.

Not to get too psychoanalytical here but I think it's fair to say that Michael Jackson has never fully developed psychologically into an adult. How could he? He's been stifled and stunted by the media, his parents, isolationism, the public and the inability to act out psychosexually for decades. At this point in his life, he is more like a prepubescent teen that has just begun to experiment with sex which explains his attraction to little boys. Yes, this is wrong. Again, I am not making excuses for him, I'm just trying to understand why someone would act this way.

While he should know right from wrong, he lives in "his own world" brought on by an entire life of isolation. In Michael Jackson's world he doesn't want to hurt kids, in fact, as we've heard him say sharing a bed with another, regardless of age, is one of the most beautiful things in the world. He doesn't know right from wrong. So for him to have a twelve year old boy (or whatever age they were) in his bed was absolutely not wrong in his estimation. In fact, it was beautiful. He had no one to tell him differently. Who would? His employees and risk being fired?

Michael Jackson may physically be in his forties but mentally he is much, much younger. Can you imagine the things your twelve or thirteen year old child, niece or nephew would do if they had no parents and several millions of dollars? They'd probably make their own Disneyland. Maybe buy a big house and convert it into an amusement park. Invite some of their friends over, or if they didn't have any, buy them, entice them to coming over to play with you. And what happens when you start having sexual thoughts? We all do. In their world, they could have, do or be whatever they wanted. Perhaps they'd even engage in altering their appearance to look like those you admire.
What do you do when you're in your forties and have never had a healthy sexual relationship? Physically your body begins to crave certain things: You can only deny yourself satisfaction for so long. You lose touch with reality, fed on by your isolationism. You act in inappropriate ways.

Look, I know this is controversial and that Michael Jackson is most likely a child molester - that is one that wants to be sexual with those under the age of eighteen. While it's not an excuse, I don't think that he "forced" the kids into doing anything with him. Of course I wasn't there (thank God) to know what really happened but something tells me this wasn't malicious in intent.

The alleged event(s) was (were) probably like two boys that get together, at age twelve or thirteen, and show each other their equipment. Maybe they mutually masturbate. Sure one could be a bit more aggressive in the "bring it up", no pun intended. Maybe a little "Jesus Juice" or wine to aid in the event. Suspend your disbelief for a second and imagine two twelve or thirteen year old boys raiding the liquor cabinet, watching porn and having a circle jerk. No parents. Your friend has bought a Disneyland and every imaginable toy to go with it and your home alone - not the makings of innocence.

Obviously, Michael Jackons is an adult. Michael Jackson shouldn't be sleeping with or playing with little boys. He doesn't think he's doing anything wrong. Michael Jackson is psychologically disturbed.

Michael Jackson didn't buy Neverland to entice. No, he bought it to fulfill a fantasy to create the childhood he never had. He lived that childhood for many years and finally developed into a psychological teen where he got into trouble engaging in what we deem normal for any teenage boy. It's just too bad that it took him forty odd years to get there. I make no excuses for Michael Jackson. He should know better but when you have no sense of reality, it's nearly impossible.