In the audience I sat spellbound, hypnotized by her performance. The singing ...acting... she was just phenomenal. However, her version of And I Am Telling You is what really threw me into a trance. I've heard this song a million times. I've known it since the inception of the Jennifer Holliday version. However, I've never seen a performance of it - only listened to the soundtrack. I've never really understood the context in which it was sung.
Last night, I had tears rolling down my face. And these tears were not just tears that you'd blink away. No, these tears were much deeper. Had I not had just one glimmer of self-control left, I would have begun to convulse into uncontrollable, extremely audible, embarrassing sobs replete with disgusting snorting sounds, flowing nose and red, swollen eyes. I was on the verge. My bottom lip was quivering. Her performance was that powerful.
How I found this performance to be so moving was the desperation she displayed in her want for a man that had already made up his mind he was leaving. With me, her hopelessly clinging to the man she loves struck a deep chord within me.
Please stay and hold me mister manShe was literally trying to put his arms back around her, to bring back the love that they once had. After he walks out on her, the song builds and spot light center stage she cries the lyrics...
Try it mister
Try it mister
I know I know I know you can
And I am telling youYet he's gone, walking away from her. Effie doesn't want to leave.
I'm not going.
You're the best man I'll ever know.
There's no way I can ever, ever go
No, no, no, no way,Effie's wanting to stay, clinging onto something whose decision wasn't really up to her was what struck me. How can you stay when the other party has left you? There was nothing left in which to stay for yet she refuses to believe it and hopelessly hangs on. Talk about empathize, I found the Effie in me. I think that's when my lip started quivering.
No, no, no, no way I'm livin' without you.
Oh, I'm not livin' without you,
I'm not livin' without you.
I don't wanna be free.
Tear down the mountains,Sometimes love is so powerful. We'll do whatever it takes to hold on.
Yell, scream and shout.
You can say what you want,
I'm not walkin' out.
Stop all the rivers,
Push, strike, and kill.
I'm not gonna leave you,
There's no way I will.
You're gonna love me!