Recently I've been contemplating the retirement of BanditTalks, not because I'm tired of writing or have nothing to say (far from the contrary) but more so because I feel as if I reached the end of the road in terms of issues I've been dealing with and things that BanditTalks has really helped me get through. Remember the days of me crying during snowstorms and listening to sad sappy music while I lament the past? I'm done with that!
Yet just as I was thinking of turning off the switch (click here to see a draft of the new WordPress Blog that I put together) I decided why ruin a good thing. Not that popularity matters but suddenly BanditTalks is averaging over 500 hits a day, something a while back I wouldn't think I could have gotten in a year! Then this morning sitting in my Inbox was a sweet little note from Digital T-Square wondering if Bandit lost me during one of our walks. Digital even threatened to put up an electric fence to contain me.
So I'm back...
Yet I've been doing a lot of thinking: I know I want to keep writing but what do I want to write? A blog? If so, what do I want this new format to be like? Or does it even have to be all that new? I'd like to say I write for my readers but to be perfectly honest, I'm too selfish. I write because I have something inside me to say; it's cathartic. I want to shy away from being too forth coming and personal yet still balance it with truth. Do I stay on BanditTalks or do I start something else?
Either way I guess it doesn't really matter. Besides most of the hits I get here are from Ryan Seacrest fans wondering if I really am (was) his gay lover. You'll have to ask him to find out. After all, there was that business trip last spring...
Then I think about my book -- the 350-page novel that's taken me about 10 years (obviously not applied time) to write. It still needs work. Then driving around yesterday two characters came into my head for an entirely new story. I toyed around with the idea of writing up some character sketches. However, writing into a word processor everyday and not getting any immediate feedback is sort of like..well...masturbating. Sure it can be fun but you really want a partner. I get excited about Blogging. I love writing little 500-1,000 word snippets where I take the mundane and make it, what I'd like to think, interesting. Saving a story over and over into Word is tedious, long and sometimes boring.
How about a fictional blog? Hmmm...the building of a short-story, or perhaps even a book, on the Internet. That might be "novel" approach.