Slept like a baby last night. Sometimes I'll wake up at 3:00 and only fitfully rest until five or so. Last night was different. I did wake up, at 3:00, but about two minutes later I was out like a light again until my alarm went off at 5:30. I'm usually up before my alarm. Woke up fully rested! Anyway, enough of my boring sleeping habits.
God, Blogging is so narcissistic: "Look at me! Listen to me!" All the silly little things I do everyday. Oy vey! I must need my head examined for exposing myself so clearly. Then again every other Friday for $125...
See? There I go again. Anyway, onto today's topic...
Someone pointed out to me the other day that often people, in general, and this person threw me into the "general" category, never seem to be happy with where they are in life. Regardless of how much we have, we always strive for more. And she's right.
Back in my twenties, I used to be much more spiritual and not attached to worldly possessions or even people but as years went on I bought more into "this life" of living here on this earth and acted accordingly. I used to treat this life sort of like a dream - a spiritual being having a human experience. Both spiritual and somatic approaches have their pros and cons. It's just that now I've bought more into "this life", the somatic, and sometimes just need to take a step back and remind myself who I really am. I'm not Rick Bettencourt the 6' tall Analyst/Writer but some thing some one much more ethereal and infinite. As Kierkegaard put it, "once you label me, you negate me." It's good every so often to remind oneself of our deeper, truer nature.
I'm not a overly religious (i.e. Catholicism) person but I do consider myself deeply spiritual. So with my spirit I choose to live this life! And "this life".
As for that silly little anxiety dream I had the other night... the one about sending the VPs at work an e-mail with a small typo is really pretty insignificant. Then again in order to make it and get ahead in "this life" sometimes you need to strive for perfection. "This life" likes the fact that you at least try so hard and rewards you for doing so; hence the reason we go on seeking perfection.
Perfection is a high standard to hold yourself to. I guess you just have to accept the fact that it's unattainable.